Sunday, September 16, 2018

I'm Still Alive (But I'm Barely Breathing)

2:52:00 PM

      So as the title says, I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing. I haven't posted anything on here since June, which now that I think about it, that might a record for the longest time I haven't posted anything on here. I'm going to be honest, I high-key even forgot I had a blog. I've been wrapped up in enjoying my summer, the hell that is research, and focusing on my last semester of undergrad, that I haven't really had time to read or blog. But the thing is, I'm not sorry.

      For the first time in years, I've truly enjoyed myself out in the real world. I have friends that I've been lucky enough to spend time with and actually open up to. I've had experiences that I only dreamed of happening. I've made life choices that have scared the hell out of me, but I'm so glad I made them because if I didn't, I don't know if I would still be here, or at least my sanity would be long gone. 

      As I mentioned in the first paragraph, it's my last semester of college, and I want to go out doing everything I need and want to do. I want to excel in my classes and research, and I'm in charge of several clubs, so all of that takes up quite a bit of my time. Reading for fun isn't in the picture right now, but that's okay, for now. I'm growing and changing, something I mistakenly thought I was done doing when I graduated high school (silly me). 

      In a few months, I will be done with college, and after lots of thinking and stressing, I've decided to take a break from academia before I go to grad school, and get a job out in the real world. I've also decided to move with my best friend since childhood to one of the cities of our dreams and test the limitations of our friendship, just like we always planned. 

     All of this is to say, right now my life is pretty good, and I'm not quite ready to come back to blogging. Blogging was my crutch, my safety from the world. But at the moment, I don't need it. When I'm no longer in college, I'm sure I'll be back because transitions are not the best time for me. And that's not to say that I won't post on here at all within the next 3 months, it's just the likelihood is very small and the posts if there are any, will be pretty infrequent.

      To those of you that have stuck with me this long, I thank you, and can only hope you'll stick around when I transition to the next stage of my life.

Saturday, June 30, 2018

"Cursed" by Jennifer L. Armentrout

10:30:00 AM


Book: Cursed

Author: Jennifer L. Armentrout

My Rating: ★★1/2

Synopsis: Dying sucks
...and high school senior Ember McWilliams knows firsthand. 

After a fatal car accident, her gifted little sister brought her back. Now anything Ember touches dies. And that, well, really blows.

Ember operates on a no-touch policy with all living things--including boys. When Hayden Cromwell shows up, quoting Oscar Wilde and claiming her curse is a gift, she thinks he's a crazed cutie. But when he tells her he can help control it, she's more than interested. There's just one catch: Ember has to trust Hayden's adopted father, a man she's sure has sinister reasons for collecting children whose abilities even weird her out. However, she's willing to do anything to hold her sister's hand again. And hell, she'd also like to be able to kiss Hayden. Who wouldn't?

But when Ember learns the accident that turned her into a freak may not've been an accident at all, she's not sure who to trust. Someone wanted her dead, and the closer she gets to the truth, the closer she is to losing not only her heart, but her life.

For real this time.

      I want to preface this by saying that Jennifer L. Armentrout is probably one of my favorite authors. Her characters, writing, and romance have always drawn me and and really stuck with me. That being said, I did not like this book. Like, at all.

      This book really disappointed me, though I guess I shouldn't have been surprised considering this is probably one of her least talked about books. I've actually not come across another booksphere person who has talked about this book. It's a shame because the premise for this book is something that Jennifer could have really drove home, but for me, it just fell flat.

      Nothing about this book was redeemable, which is really strange cause there is at least one thing that should have been done write, but wasn't. The writing and plot fell really flat for me. Nothing really happened until the last 15% of the book, and everything before was just unnecessary drama and padding. Jennifer tried to cram all the action, drama, climax, and resolution in a short amount of time, and it just didn't work. If this book wasn't written by her, I probably would have just straight up DNFed it.

      Now let's get to the most disappointing part of the book: the romance. If there is one thing Jennifer L. Armentrout can do write, it's romance, but this was not one of those cases. This relationship was so unhealthy, creepy, and in my opinion, quite toxic. Hayden, the main love interest, has been STALKING Ember, the main character, for damn near two years before they even fucking meet each other ! Then, when they get together, he's possessive, creepy, and just everything come off of him screams ISSUES. He does some pretty shady shit and Ember just glosses over it and forgives him, like the whole stalking thing.

      Overall, I'm sad that I didn't enjoy the book, but I don't regret reading it. It just goes to show that everything your favorite authors put out aren't going to necessarily be good.

      Have you read "Cursed"? If so, I'd love to hear your thoughts about it down below in the comments. If not, have you read Jennifer L. Armentrout's other books? What are your thoughts on her works?

Friday, June 29, 2018

Friday Reads: June 28, 2018

2:41:00 PM


      My research project has kinda been at a stand still this week since my project mentor was out and I couldn't do anything without him, so, fortunately for me, unfortunately for the project, I got to do some reading.


      I've been listening to "Cursed" by Jennifer L. Armentrout on audiobook this past week and am finishing it up today. I'm gonna be honest, this is definitely my least favorite book by her, which is a shame because I've loved everything else she has written. Now I understand why there has been little to no buzz about this book. It's a shame because the main relationship in this book is super fucking toxic, and that really puts me off. I'll write up a full review later, but let's just say I'm disappointed.


      As a part of my effort to reread some of my favorite books, I've picked up "To All the Boys I've Loved Before". The timing was absolutely perfect because the trailer for the Netflix movie adaptation came out this week, which as a side note, I loved the trailer but I can already tell it's gonna be hella different than the book. I first read this book in the beginning of high school and now I'm almost at the end of my undergraduate career. Even within the first few chapters of the book, I could point out things that bother me now and definitely seem immature. Despite that, the cuteness of all the relationships and the swoonworthyness of Peter is still deeply rooted in me. This second Peter was back, I could feel my heart strings begin to tug. This book sure does bring out the feels in me.

      Anyways, that's what I'm reading/listening to this weekend. I'm also going to try to get some writing down, but we'll see if that happens.

Wednesday, June 27, 2018

Top 5 Wednesday: Books You Want to Read Before the End of the Year

9:30:00 AM


      It has been forever and a day since I've done a Top 5 Wednesday. I mainly stopped doing them because I couldn't consistently come up with books for the prompts that weren't the same handful of books over and over again. A big reason why that happens is because I have a terrible time remembering books, even books that I supposedly enjoyed a lot. I'll delve into that in a later blog post. Anyways, I came across this week's topic and realized this was one I could actually do without being repetitive or having to dig, so without further ado, here are the top 5 books from my TBR that I want to read before the end of the year.

5. Crazy Rich Asians by Kevin Kwan


I was absolutely obsessed with the trailer for this movie when it first came out. I couldn't stop watching it because for some reason it just gave me so many feels. I'd like to read the book before the movie comes out, but I'm already pretty certain the movie is going to be quite different from the book, which is fine because it still looks really good.

4. Rejected Princesses: Tales of History's Boldest Heroines, Hellions, and Heretics by Jason Porath


I love history and this book covers the badass women in history that have pretty much just been glazed over. 

3. Misfit City Vol. 1 (Misfit City #1) by Kirsten Smith


I tried to read this during the school year, but unfortunately I just didn't have time, so I finally want to finish it before the year is over.

2. Let's Talk About Love by Claire Kann


This book has an asexual black girl which is what describes me exactly. I've never read a book with an asexual MC, so I'm really excited to read a book where I will for once in my life be represented in.

1. The Cruel Prince by Holly Black


I absolutely love Holly Black's works, and the fact that I haven't had time to get to this yet has killed me. She is the reason why I don't absolutely hate Fae books anymore.

Well there you have it! Those are the books that I will try my damnest to finish before the year is over. Hopefully I'll actually be able to finish them before the summer is over. Have you read any of the books on my list? If so, what did you think? I'd love to hear your thoughts down in the comments.

My Rating System

★★★★★ This book is a gift from the literary gods
★★★★ This book was pretty damn good
★★★ This book had potential but missed the bar
★★ I probably didn't finish this book or it was god awful
★ Why does this book exist?